Floating like a boat~
Cross over the mighty wave and the endless sea~
When just reached the cliff~
We have to stop for it~
Well..This four stanza just thought by me just for an instant...crazy..hehe...what do i mean from these four stanza?? am i saying i'm lost in somewhere right now?? somehow it seem so.. Where do you think i'm lost in?? most probably in a love sea?? haha a.k.a 愛河..haha..I just found out about this recently..Which is caused me do nothing..thinking nothing..doing anything aimlessly.. Well..you wanna know what is it?? you all know whom i liked right?? That the cause of the thing.. Well..I always check out her blog while she allow me to visit her blog since Form 4... well..i doesn't mean i was really close to her..somehow our traits are just too similar.. Might have some frenz said that.. We're different in personality... Just becoz of that..It caused many problem between us... As the SPM ended.. Our relationship is just getting wider and wider...neither narrowed..=.= since the exam is ended and the school is ended..what for we contact each other..Meanwhile i found out that she is playing some kind of game recently..Thus i followed what she playing right now.. And i get to know many new frenz..Although they were just a Game frenz..But i will treated them like my usual frenz..Frenz will not consider about their rank..Just you all think that they should have that rank then you given them at that ranking.. Well it just simple for me..Frenz is frenz..They no difference...Best Friend?? Good Friend?? It just the same..ain't it got 'Friend' behind it?? why don't just simplify it..You all just making it too complicated..=.= somehow.. maybe it could said as recently..i did something wrong..As she say i was wrong at that time..then i was just admit my fault.. What was my fault?? sure did You wanna know.. It was about a frenz i knew in the game.. well.. she is one of my frenz.. how she be my frenz.. becoz of 'her' brother...well..i don't know 'her' brother much..just talked a little.. well..i just too socialable...thus we get to be frenz.. In the game..he fell in love with a girl.. which is haven be my frenz.. After they get together.. then only we get to know each other.. since 'she' is his sis... so 'she' also know who 'her' brother like in that game... meanwhile.. 'She' don't like that girl at all.. Thus 'she' have a grundge toward her...no choice.. I thought she might accept her.. at the same time.. that girl found out i like 'her'.. thus she wanna know how she look like.. she demanding me to show her 'her' pic...but i don't have it.. so i just give out her blogger website.. I thought that might solve my problem for instant..but the problem is geting worse..'she' knew that i given out the blogger website..Then getting fed up and angry at me.. She keep on scolding me..no matter what i say..she just ignoring...At the end of the scolding..She call me to get lost from her sight..Thus at that time..i granted her wish..i just appear offline directly...Well.. am i cruel?? no.. she more cruel.. even though she cruel..i won't blame her or mad at her.. since i'm the one at fault..although some of my frenz say that i'm no wrong at all..but i still feeling that i'm wrong..So.. since that time..we don't chat with each other for more than 1 week i think.. that a long time.. before..whenever she on9.. she would probably find me to chat with her...coz i never prompting ppl unless it necessary... thus everytime she have some problem..she would be solving with me.. same to me..Just after that 1 week or somehow..she prompting me..it unexpectedly.. coz we been didn't chat with each other for somehow a long time..and she also find out my plurk..somehow is like a expressing machine or service..haha... i have wrote many special comment on myself...What lost myself...hear also felt cold..=.= well..i read too much romance book or watch too much romance movie or drama i think.. but i just can't help myself from doing that... coz my heart really pain.. all the game i played is just losing..no winning at all... bad luck huh~ Well..that time she find me.. she say..she will forgive me...if i don't do this anymore.. thus.. she ask me can i accept or not..i say nothing..coz i dunno what to do..so..at the end..i just say okay..but then..the following day is just the same.. we didn't chat much at all..even she didn't work at all.. just after she started work..we are just completely never chatted at all.. well..it the consequences i have to accept.. there no way to avoid from reality...she plurking, updating blog...so much time to doing all that..but she doesn't chat to me at all..what can i prefer?? i can prefer nothing..what i can prefer is she live happily everyday..she telling her tiredness to all her other frenz but not to me..what can i do..i'm not her only frenz..some might think i'm just a toy...but actually is i toying around her.. there nothing she can deal with that..it should be i deal with that..well.. we just went for the badminton last saturday..i saw her off from her mom car..i waving to her brother.. her mom also waving at me..just she doesn't..i wonder why..just i after i check out the blog or plurk somehow..i found out that... SHE HAS COMPLETELY HATED ME...=.= in her blog..she say she hate me.. in her plurk..she say she doesn't want to see me..what can i do..thus..i just reject woo tung's invitation to the badminton for this saturday...since she doesn't want to see me at all..why don't i granted her wish?? well this thing can't blame her de..after what i done..i also can't eventually forgive myself..how could she..haiz~ i thought they might ask for explaination..but there isn't..=.= An explaination can't cover up anything right?? doesn't have better than have..doesn't it?? Well.. This might the end of my blog..or maybe not.. This must depend on the future...=.=
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